Currently Listening Afterglow By Sarah McLachlan see related

- world on fire

my life is breaking my heart and i'm not sure what to do.  part of me wants to run to chicago, part of me wants to sleep for a week, and part of me wants to say boo-ya and kick some ass. but i don't know what part to believe. okay, this entry may very well be because i am drunk. but i dont think so. and i dont know.

Currently Listening Medusa/Live in Central Park By Annie Lennox see related

im ready to get this summer over with. i know that sounds crazy but i'm so bored and the biggest dramas in the world keep popping up. a good friend made up some pretty big lies about me and everything spun way out of control. and for the first time, i am really not responsible for any of it. its kinda sad because i thought i could trust someone and i cant. and the other person involved, someone i love talking to and hanging out with, pretty much hates me and has no problem telling me that. however everything is based on lies which makes the situation even worse.

but on a brighter note, i got to spend the day up in evanston with katie yesterday. we laid out at northwestern's private beach and got yelled at by the lifeguard. of course we got into mad amounts of trouble. we broke into the beta house which was very entertaining/psychotic. we had a good time though, which was something i really needed.

well, that's all i gotta say. im excited to get back to charleston. i have high expectations for this year, and i know i'm not going to be let down. i feel it in me bones. sometimes i like substituting me for my. its fun. try talking like that.

Currently Listening Stars: The Best of the Cranberries, 1992-2002 By Cranberries see related

hmmm, things haven't been going so well this week. i've gained like forty pounds this weekend. and i was doing so well.  

my family is in orlando this week. i wasn't invited!  that makes me angry. i wouldn't have gone, but it would have been nice to be asked. this summer is so lame because i haven't been on any vacations this summer. i always do at least one fun thing, however, this is not the case. i was supposed to go to san deigo but being laid off of my job changed those plans. boooo. but hopefully when i get back to school, i can take some trips. well for fall break i have to come home to chicago for my cousins wedding. should be pretty hoity-toity because the bride is loaded. and for thanksgiving i'm hoping to go stay with my sister, or maybe do something else that would be considered fun.

actually when i get back to school, i should probably be in a good place financially. because i was awarded that phi mu scholarship i dont have to worry about the sorority bills, which is a huge burden lifted off my shoulders. because i'm a guard again, i also am going to start making serious bank. i'm so excited. so basically i have no out of pocket expenses when i get back besides spending money and whatnot.

oh so i met this guy last weekend, we hung out last night, he was pretty cool. that's all i will say. i hate doing this illinois/south carolina thing. say i started to really like this guy, i have to peace out in a few weeks. same thing happened when i left charleston. its so frustrating.

well i have a loooonnnnngggg day of work tomorrow. 8-12 swim lessons. 12-4:30 guarding. 6-7 swim lessons. 9-11 in-service. this is going to suck. i get to teach parent/tot at least. its amazing. i love those little babies playing in the water. sooo cute. alright, well me and my dog of doom Opee are going to sleep. goodnight.

Currently Listening Red Dirt Road By Brooks & Dunn see related

- Born to Run <------ if i listen to it, i will believe it

 ha, that's the bitter face. i like it. i hate men. i know i just said that i didn't last post, but i do. men are shit. there are no ifs, ands, or buts about it. boooo on men.

on a better note, yesterday was the best day ever. i got my lifeguarding job back. they aren't making me pay for my license or books, they just want me back! i'm so excited. i'm going to be making some good money for the rest of the summer. woo hoo.

also, i got to show up the class commentator with my wit and intelligence yesterday. it was pretty darn amazing. and i went on a really good run. it was only a mile and a half, which is really far for me. let's see, for normal people, that is my equivalent of a six mile run. i need to get in really good shape the next few years so i can get into federal law enforcement, which i've decided that's what i want to do. so woo hoo for me. i'm also lifting a lot and getting really strong. GRRR, you better watch out for me in the fall!!!!

so my sisters coming in this weekend with her roomate. i'm super excited because i havent seen her in almost a year. okay, like eight months, but that's still a long time. i also bought a new seer sucker skirt that i want to wear on the 4th, so i'm super excited.

alright kiddies, i hope everyone has a wonderful day, a wonderful july 4th, and above all, a wonderful life. i will be going on a run now, so i know i won't be having any of those for the next half hour

Currently Listening Break Down Here By Julie Roberts see related

- If You Had Called Yesterday

soo did i miss the memo that myspace is the hippest new blog space? because i totally don't agree with that.

okay, so today i had my crim. class which is super interesting. however, it really makes me appreciate the education i am recieving at cofc. because seriously, the kids in my class cant speak proper english. and one girl asked "whatever happened in the hobbs/tobias case?" well for those of you not from chicago, on mothers day this ex-convict murdered his daughter and her best friend. it was so sad. well it just irritated me because if we are in an upper level criminal justice class, we should all understand the criminal justice system, am i right? well obviously if this only happened a month ago, there has been no trial, no nothing. i dont know why this girl irritated me so much. alas, i must be crazy.

i had a rough day at work today. no tip again. ladies and gentlemen, if you have your bday party at a pool, and there is a hostess, you need to tip her. period amen. also, i got really sunburned and had a run in with the stupid day camp people. the day campers run mad through out the pool and i dont think it is unreasonable to request the counselors control the kids. and then they took over my splash party pavillion. this does not a happy tracy make.

so after class, i tried to go running but my knee hurt really bad. interesting. don't know why. i also have this really really really painful welt from my bathing suit that prohibits me from wearing undies. i know that was probably an overshare, but you try walking around in a tight bathing suit all day. it is not fun.

also, julie roberts cd, breakdown, this like the kelly clarkson of country music. it is amazing. i kinda wish i was being dumped right now so i could listen to it over and over. ha ha, just kidding, i'm glad that i am happy for the first time in a while and there is nooooo man to bring me down. plenty of time for that in the fall, i'm sure.

as happy as i actually am right now, i keep missing something. is it possible to miss something that you never had? like, i miss my tiny little thighs, but i never had them. just kidding. but this is the thought i've been entertaining lately. i'm missing something, i cant put my finger on what it is exactly. this leads me to believe that i miss something i never actually had. interesting.

well i'm peacing out. another day of getting my stomach kicked and having my bathing suit ripped off of my body. and definately a nap somewhere in there.

goodnight y'all.

does anyone read this anymore?